Well, that's it. All the Universities responded. I was rejected from Cambridge, St Andrews, Durham and Bristol. The last three were all within two weeks of each other. Ouch.

Good news: I received an acceptance to Warwick to read English with Creative Writing, on the condition that I get AABB. I'm predicted AAAA, but my January modules went badly, as in C in English, D in History badly, which doesn't exactly bode well...

Damnit, how do you people pulling 4 and 5 As do it?

 

mood: nervous tags: college

WHY is being asian a prerequisite for being a good cosplayer! What the fuck?! Why do these fucktards keep telling me to give up cosplaying just because I'm not asian, and therefore could never even be as good as a bad asian cosplayer, let alone a decent one?

WHAT THE HELL!

WHY do they insist on comparing the worst of the caucasian cosplayers with the best of the asian cosplayers, and then claiming that the WORST is the general standard for everyone over here! The asian cosplayers apparently even cosplay european and american characters better than the europeans and americans! Yes, if the cosplay itself is better, then it's better, but it makes no sense for the costume to be superior on the basis that the person wearing it is from (for example) Korea as opposed to Britain.

Yes, there are a hell of a lot of good asian cosplayers out there, and yes, there are a hell of a lot of BAD caucasian cosplayers out there. The asian cosplayers aren't all perfect dammit! Just like all the caucasian cosplayers aren't shite!

(end rant)

That all probably sounded horribly racist. It really wasn't meant to be. It's not the cosplayers themselves, it's those few arseholes (particularly the creators of those Best/Worst cosplay sites) who've made this ridiculous decision concerning cosplay, and have decided to shove their views down our throats too.

And to the fucktard who sparked this off in the first place: No, the Szayel cosplay has not been called off because of your ridiculous preaching. Neither has Gin, Deidara, Kanda or Sugino. Do you get the picture? And if I choose to go into town cosplaying, then I fucking well will, and if you choose to TRY to PUBLICLY humiliate me about it again then I will beat you into submission verbally (and physically) just like I did this time.

mood: infuriated tags: cosplay, rant

1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Put iTunes or equivalent media player on random.
3. For each song that plays, write something related to the theme you picked inspired by the song. You have only the time frame of the song: no planning beforehand: you start when it starts, and no lingering afterward; once the song is over, you stop writing. (No fair skipping songs either; you have to take what comes by chance!)
4. Do 5 of these, then post.

Fandom: Bleach
Characters: Soifon (which spelling of her name is the right one?), though mentions are made of Yoruichi, Urahara and Zaraki ^^
Pairing: Dunno, possibly the tiniest, weeniest suggestion of Urahara/Yoruichi
Rating: PG, I guess
Notes: First time writing Soifon ^^;; Be gentle?

mood: bouncy tags: bleach, fanfiction, meme, soifon

First two exams of the month today. History and English Lit; could I have got a worse combination for the first day. *And* they were back to back. *And* it meant I was stuck in the isolation room with the other twenty candidates doing the double til half eleven while everyone else got out at quarter past ten (except the people who doubled History with Computing. Poor sods were stuck in til half twelve!)

I think I did OK. I got the questions answered at least, but they were nasty on both papers.

English: "In Antony and Cleopatra, Shakespeare completely agrees with the Roman belief that suicide is a victory, not a defeat." Do you agree?

History: In what ways did the Nazis try to control the experiences of the German youth 1933-39? To what extent did the lives of German workers improve under the Nazi regime 1933-39?

Could have been worse, but could have been a lot better. I got eight pages done, all told: four for the English essay, one and a half for the 20 mark History question, and two and a half for the 40 mark. 

After that I was pretty dead, though I made it to the second half of my History double period lesson. I was the only one though. Funny that, considering I was the only one doing the double. Everyone else got out before the double period even started; they should have been there... Ah well, I skipped the rest of my lessons anyway, so who am I to point the finger? They were only revision sessions anyway, so it doesn't matter that much. Why sit in a stuffy classroom with people I don't like and revise, when I can do it sitting out in the garden, in the sunshine?

Now I've only got... *counts on fingers*... fourteen exams to go. Next two on Friday (w00t! Psychology!). I need to get on with my revision... and I have to get three costumes finished in time for the expo; bother. This should be an interesting two weeks ^^;;

P.S. On a complete tangent, I have a fox living under my shed that is the proud mum of two of the most adorable cubs I have ever seen. They were playing in the garden last night .*squees*

location: sunny patio mood: I call it: contemblah music: bird song, noise pollution tags: exams

 http://community.livejournal.com/bleach_rating/500566.html

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..... Ok, what? *watches the balls come flying in from left field*

Ganju? Honest to God, Ganju?!

What did I do in my life that was so horrible that I ended up as Ganju?!

*sob* I'm never gonna hear the end of this. TT_TT

mood: distressed tags: bleach, bleach_rating

 OK, on a more serious note than my poetry. Yes I do believe in ghosts. I've experienced them quite a lot over the years; It's not something that particularly bothers me, it just seems to happen more to the people who are receptive to it.

At my last house there was girl, younger than me, who called herself Orange (I don't know why). She first appeared when my parents were talking about cutting down this huge tree we had in our back garden, and only stopped visiting when I convinced them not to. She spoke occasionally using automatic writing (if you know what that is) but mostly it was the feeling of her presence when I was in the garden or in one of the rooms that looked out on the garden, a sudden feeling of anxiety.

When my great grandfather died my gran and my mum all had the same dream of him, and their clocks stopped at exactly the same time.

On a smaller note, I remember going to my bedroom door one night and letting my kitten in as she was mewing outside. She ran under the bed as she usually did and I could hear her purring. The doorbell went, and when I opened the door, there were a couple outside who asked me if I owned a little white cat. They'd just run her over. I ran upstairs, back to my room but the purring had stopped. We've moved out of that house now, but I still see her occasionally, running past out of the corner of my eye, or sometimes I'll feel a cat wrapping round my legs and think it's one of my new kittens, and then find them asleep in the laundry basket.

You just get used to living with ghosts after a while.

mood: working tags: ghost story, writer's block

Ok, I was given the drabble prompt "Reunion" and figured I'd use it for Chire and Hoero, who desperately need some love considering how much time I spend on fanfiction, poetry, etc. I quite like it, though it needs some tweaking, and Ren actually made an appearance for once! Imagine David Attenborough's voice: "And at last we see, the rare, wren sized nightingale, with her exceedingly cute/ irritating birdie voice."

One thing I did do right with this was keep to the count. Five hundred words exactly. I think that's quite clever. Cookies to anyone who spots the anime reference ^_~.

Cute, right? 

mood: giggly tags: chire, drabble, hoero, ren

I've just spent the last few days working on an application for an RP, having to be really careful because they were a pre played character (mannerisms have to fit the established personality, etc), and it was practically done and I was quite pleased with it... and then the original player came back. You can't really argue against that, especially since this person apparantly created the RP in the first place. 

Go me, I've just made myself look like the biggest prat in the world in front of the moderators, and I think I'm getting on their nerves as it is with my other app which they don't seem hugely enthused with anyway (can't blame them to be honest, I know I can be really irritating). In my last email I already said I was considering apping for another pre played character, now that the one I was considering was definitely gone (the original player is amazing, I wouldn't have had a hope even if they had to app for it as well) but I'm having second thoughts. These guys are really good; I have had a look at the logs for the available pre played characters and I can't match any of the writers. I think I'll just stick with the one person I have, it's only a small part so I can't cock up too badly, right?

It sucks realising you're not up to par, but better now before I screw with someone's well written character. Maybe I can apply again later when I've had more practise...

mood: embarrassed tags: rp